It's days like today I miss Tumblr. I've been trying to decide whether I want to come off one of my medications and probably have made the wrong decision. For the past week I have been taking my evening medication only every other night because I'm bored of it making me fat. This is a truly pathetic excuse for coming off a medication that is making me, on the whole, feel better. I have once again reached the 6 month mark of being on these medications. Whenever I start a new course of antidepressants, the same thing happens. 6 months in, some of the symptoms crop up randomly. And 6 months in, I contemplate coming off the meds. And then I relapse spectacularly and the cycle starts again.
I so want it to be different this time. I didn't stop my meds outright. I've tried to wean myself off them. But with no real medical input it's a challenge to know what to do. Maybe I should stop trying to be my own doctor, suck it up and talk with my GP. All I know is that hallucinations, crying in supermarkets, feeling completely zoned out all the time and just needing to be held aren't particularly helpful to a decent quality of life. Yes, I'm living. Yes, I feel more free than I have in years. But I just want a hug :(
*hugs* xoox
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